May page views have fallen about as low as my motivation.
My apologies for the mini blogging break that occurred recently. I had plans to get all into it, I had my calendar all filled out and I was so prepped to make some great posts! Then, I don’t know, I just woke up and lost all motivation. Maybe moving and starting all over on the friend making front and the job front just really took it out of me. I mean, we’ve made some amazing friends out here, but I still feel a little lost. Sometimes I wake up and miss the little things, like being able to walk down the block and get french crepes, or seeing a horrifically huge flock of crows over the intersection.
Constantly filling out application after job application, constantly altering cover letters and rewriting them, and constantly getting rejection after silent treatment really, really wears you down. I’d be lying if I said that I didn’t have some days that I woke up feeling rather hopeless and completely unmotivated. Days where the most I did was walk outside with a cup of water to water my plants I recently planted. I mean. That was it, that was my action for the day. Days like that I didn’t have it in me to blog. I knew that if I sat down to write up a post it would come out negative and depressing, and I didn’t want to write that. (Granted, this post is coming out rather negative)
Sometimes you need a break and I needed a little break, so I wasn’t spewing negative vibes all over the place.
Sometimes you feel like you’re trying your best, and other days it feels like you can’t even lift a finger, let alone try. My best didn’t feel like enough for a while and I’m still getting used to life down here in Texas. It’s been a major upheaval for me, as someone who has never really moved before. Although, I’m getting better.
I finally found a schedule and habit to fall into, now that I’m employed, I feel a lot better, even if there are good and bad days. There will always be good and bad days, that’s just life.
Now, I can get back to the regular schedule content. I hope you’re still there readers!